Friday, November 28, 2008

Thanksgiving's turkey coma

My mother out does herself ever day of the year! Here is just a day out of this year! She enjoys the work and loves making people happy! To all those who had a great thanksgiving, Happy Thanksgiving. Still to stuffed to post elaberatly. Just here some of what you missed out on;

I still to full!!!!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Its a dream in a cup!

He shot me and I felt it hard. My life changed when he pointed me in her direction. He told me I would fall for her harder then any one I have fell for before. I think he was right. She was everything I wanted in a girl. Her smiled peirced my heart and made me want her more. Her eyes put the stars to shame, I knew they were meant to be stared at. I thought about her everyday of every minute. I loved her. I still do.


I closed my eyes and there we were standing on a bridge in a dark highway still under construction. We were talking about life and other things friends talk about, then she jumped to the dark water below and told me to jump to. I didn't hesitate and jump, I trusted her. Not just any trust. I would have Sky dived from the Empire State Bulding if she said we would survive. I hit the water and it was shallow, she smiled. So we walked through this water still talking about things that didn't matter and she turned around and splashed me but I didn't get wet. I splashed back and she laughed. At that moment My confidence rose from rock bottom and everything I used to feel washed away and I asked her "will you go out with me?" She stared back with this feeling me just wanting to get in her pants and sayed back "go out with you?" I laughed and told her that every second of everyday I think about her and that I never thought of her in a sexual way only her smile and personality started pulling at my heart strings the first moment i laid eyes on her. She smiled I smiled and she said yes. We walked side by side holding hands through this shallow pit under the broken down highway. We took this giant leap to the highway and walked till we ended up at a party where we were sitting on a sofa listening to music and everybody was dancing. She put her head on my shoulder and smile and I smiled.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Flower Power!

If you close your eyes and imagine a life with out stress then imagine your floating on air where all worries and all lifes little problems are stuck on the on the ground limited by gravity.Now take that thought ang put it in a bubble and release it to the universe and hope that someday that will come back to you in your dreams.


Have i ever told you how much I really love her, Just her smile gives me enough to continue living, but only she wont know that! The power of the imagination is greater then the power of knowledge, Mind over Knowledge!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

The World is what it is!

I live to expire before the hands of time. We fall victim to those around us, those who make that impression in our hearts, by the way they behave We love and let live with out a word, not speaking til its too late. To just want to be there when she falls only to catch her is a wish too far out of reach. Never being recognized for the mind i hold but the hard candy shell to big to desire makes you just hit that point of loneliness. True feelings alive but stay hidden from the ones they love. Waiting for a woman is the greatest joy in the world, to feel needed. But for now it only me.


When you need friends they may be busy but all you have to do is raise your voice and they will stop and listen. I love JJ as a brother and he will make something of himself! He has a place in the collective!


Went to borders today and did some work and took a test and read some books....FUN

Thursday, November 20, 2008

If the coffe is just right raise your hand.....any hands?

"Everyday beats the next day," says my buddy JJ.
I felt it and I think that if you look deep in side and set a goal you will reach that shining star of hope. What will tomorrow bring will life make it easier? its all apart of the ride and I feel every bump. But in the darkness of the light we try to define those bumps and the cracks in the ground as if we are on pins and needles hoping another will not reach us. I love life and I love people and to them smile will make my life for a million years. It is why I want to own my own business, to make people happy on my own terms. Just to see them smile.


As of to day I will start my weekend project recreating the building I want for my business. But I will need to go again, Is it illegal to measure a place that is for lease without permission when there isn't a "NO TRESPASSING" sign? I love the place if only my business plan was done but my partners are not finished with school! If we all were on the same page! The building is sweet!!!!!! If you ask me where do I see myself in 2 years(I know to short) I would proudly tell you the proud owner of a coffee shop!


Where Do I go From here? Get myself some cheesecake!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Isn't she lovely?

Everything I feel will be all for nothing. first time it was all wrong and i got hurt. All I want is for someone to look at me for my personality and not the content of my appearance, What if I asked her again? what if she said yes? what is the protocol for passing the first step? I think that is the fun in a relationship, the not knowing.


I won't ask. She won't say yes. there will be no happy ending. We all hunger for those feelings for a companion who understands you more then others. I am weak. I want those feelings but the first time will not destroy me but it will take its toll on my confidence....but who wants to hear me go on.....she makes me smile!!!


And we feel we are alive from the pain we go through, must take the pain with the good, it makes us human. But what is human?

Monday, November 17, 2008

Coffee for the soul, but not to much!

To enable reactions in that thing I call a brain, my imagination needed to be shocked into a certain mode where thoughts became reality. The search for the perfect location lead me to my high school stomping grounds. It was sweet pictures in my head and then I saw it Rubie told me it would be better then the gas station I was thinking about at first, and I hate to say but will with honesty, She was right! I love it and hope things go great.

Don't want yes men!

Tapping in to my business dashboard, going with thoughts swirling in my head, I feel I feel that my team needs a much sit down or video conference. I need more then a yes here and a yup there I need a challenge and click Save. Input is a key to success.

While in the moment of disbelief he stands!

I miss bubbie, he so cool. JJ is alive! must be wondering how life is going around the world. would much like to go to boston and have fun. Expand pipeline capacity an cut back on spending for military will help put Houston on the right track!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

My buddy :'(

Today I found the perfect place for my coffee shop....I won't tell! But anyways I had fun today went through my book and completed my Heroes comic! it was cool, poor wireless. ALthough I sat in the car most of the day It was enjoyable, I never get out anyway. smiles lol

Spitting in life, turn away from the women.

I thought of her again today and I felt good under the thought of her being happy. I still think about her. So....We came back home and had some BBQ and invited people but they didn't show! meaning leftovers for the week. lol

I can't Dream if I think.

Not so happy, havn't talked to my BB Jared..wonder what he is doing all the way in happy go lucky boston! lol but yeah mum burned finger on hot cup of coacoa lol i know its not that cold out JK

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I remember scanning peoples myspace pics and looking at them place those pics where they hold the camera up to the mirror and taking a pic of themselves. I criticized them for this superficial act but Oh guess who changed lanes on the I love myself highway...
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Please spare me the embarrassment, I saw Heidi for the first time sinse Windsor. I was fun we caught up and everything. She seems cool again. Man Elm. School memories are not my favorite memories and I don't have much of those anymore. And it seems I wasn't the only one with memory loss. The night went nowhere but south after she said She never spoke to me in elm. school. I begg to differ. lol I walked away. sean told her everything and it ran everywhere. well as the night went on we ate burgers and now she is thinking to much. But I remember it all too clearly!

But yeah Borders was fun and I got a nice 90 on my Orientation EXAM!!!!! I know I am great lol.


Can't help it

And what am i doing now? You know how you find yourself thinking about someone you really have feelings for? Well I can't help it even if we are not even on the same page let alone the same book.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Living to Blog

Okay let me just say that I hope this go well and I have the energy to keep this going, you know the blogging thing. But hurray for I've plan to go until my heart's content. Always wanted to make one on my own but never could find a topic worthy enough. There was my dreams about htis one girl but I stopped dreaming about her and began thinking about her. which is what you will hear more of.

I woke up at 7am swearing I would paint and continue revising my pokemon game and look at the time now? I spend all day staring a this girl jasmin's blog as she has inspired me to start my blog. This is one of her blog templates and I give her full credit for the blog itself.

12:30pm and I feel more alive then I have in months. Friends are the best and those who you will never forget.


Well done. And today I will be making my trip to boarders

The Brownies....Much <3