Monday, February 16, 2009

I don't condone violence just in video games

The blunt force trauma, the sick feeling, the sharp pain in the back of my neck hit me all at once. I realized what I wanted for a long time what I really wanted to do was right in front of me. For about four weeks it had been staring me in the face and I didn't even see it. It was about 9th grade I realized that I wanted to be a game designer and thats where I set my eyes on going to Florida. I am here to say I didn't make it to Florida. After 15 grueling minutes of Mr. Aksoy I realized I must stick close to home. Thats where I set my eyes on HCC - West Loop. It wasn't a bad decision I made new friends and decided to take up business as a major. Sure I want to open a coffee shop and go into business with my pals as of this weekend all plans of that are on hold. That sharp pain found my soft spot uncovering the desire half covered. Jenn reveiled to me during Lunch before the Wii Party Tournament that the party was being trown by the DevRev Club of the Department of Game Design and Simulation. What happens now that my old friend I once called a dream came back from almost sudden death. Its a party in my head now I know what I really want to do is now availiable to me so as you probably thought I am now in the process of changing my Major and I feel its the best decision I wanted to make.

Friday, February 6, 2009

I will not forget April 14th

Flying unnoticed I don't know where I am going or what I am looking for, but all I know is I am going nowhere. I enjoy the lavishes of life and the joys of having friends and I love to watch the clouds roll by as it seems to never end. I wise guy once said the scariest thing in the world is not know whats your place in life vicious circle. I don't know what my reason for living is or why I belong here but I often catch myself off guard in the process of over thinking the problems. Is cursing you reason for living on the edge or is cursing making you feel like you like living on the edge. These processes possess me to look further into the likings of others hearts and second guess the true intentions behind their sudden smiles.I wonder are there really people out there that you can truly trust? I am a listener because I feel the second I spill something intimate I will be showing them my weak spot and I get attached. I had my own look-up-to-guy, he left me right after graduation now I wonder if I can ever find someone to replace him because he truly understood the emotions in my head and never once used it against me as a way to get me to do something. I can't stop thinking that if I had the chance to tell him good luck on his journey after high school, if I got the chance to shake his hand one last time, maybe I would feel a whole lot better about the position I am in. But things move on and I must try to come to terms with the decisions we make.

The Brownies....Much <3