Friday, February 6, 2009

I will not forget April 14th

Flying unnoticed I don't know where I am going or what I am looking for, but all I know is I am going nowhere. I enjoy the lavishes of life and the joys of having friends and I love to watch the clouds roll by as it seems to never end. I wise guy once said the scariest thing in the world is not know whats your place in life vicious circle. I don't know what my reason for living is or why I belong here but I often catch myself off guard in the process of over thinking the problems. Is cursing you reason for living on the edge or is cursing making you feel like you like living on the edge. These processes possess me to look further into the likings of others hearts and second guess the true intentions behind their sudden smiles.I wonder are there really people out there that you can truly trust? I am a listener because I feel the second I spill something intimate I will be showing them my weak spot and I get attached. I had my own look-up-to-guy, he left me right after graduation now I wonder if I can ever find someone to replace him because he truly understood the emotions in my head and never once used it against me as a way to get me to do something. I can't stop thinking that if I had the chance to tell him good luck on his journey after high school, if I got the chance to shake his hand one last time, maybe I would feel a whole lot better about the position I am in. But things move on and I must try to come to terms with the decisions we make.


The Brownies....Much <3