I will not forget April 14th

Flying unnoticed I don't know where I am going or what I am looking for, but all I know is I am going nowhere. I enjoy the lavishes of life and the joys of having friends and I love to watch the clouds roll by as it seems to never end. I wise guy once said the scariest thing in the world is not know whats your place in life vicious circle. I don't know what my reason for living is or why I belong here but I often catch myself off guard in the process of over thinking the problems. Is cursing you reason for living on the edge or is cursing making you feel like you like living on the edge. These processes possess me to look further into the likings of others hearts and second guess the true intentions behind their sudden smiles.I wonder are there really people out there that you can truly trust? I am a listener because I feel the second I spill something intimate I will be showing them my weak spot and I get attached. I had my own look-up-to-guy, he left me right after graduation now I wonder if I can ever find someone to replace him because he truly understood the emotions in my head and never once used it against me as a way to get me to do something. I can't stop thinking that if I had the chance to tell him good luck on his journey after high school, if I got the chance to shake his hand one last time, maybe I would feel a whole lot better about the position I am in. But things move on and I must try to come to terms with the decisions we make.

These memories are playing like a film without sound

They never explained in the friendship manuel that losing a friend would hurt so much. They could never word down to the "t" just how it would feel. I guess no ever thinks that they would ever lose a BFF. One second they are here to stay and then they drop you in a single second without a reason. You tell them you deepest secrets and they tell theirs, and you laugh at their fart jokes and their at yours, but some are meant to stand the hands of times winged chariot. It brings that question;

Will We Still Be, Friends Forever?

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever