I Miss My Bubbie. BFFF, I hope...

It almost time for the Collective to be reunited and when it does it will never be the same. I know I will have to let go sooner or later but I hope its never. I mean he is my best friend. That friendship that where everybody looks out for each other back. The kind where there are no arguments but very powerful debates. The kind you where you just know that no matter what happens in the future there is no one in the world who can replace him. He is 99.9% of my Social Life. If you check my phone he would be the most texts received and the most calls sent. And this Sooner crap, the stuff that kills friendships, has no place in my heart. I know nobody reads my blog but I just like it when I am able to express the thoughts in this clouded mind of mine. I call him Bubbie. I treat him more like a brother then I do my own brothers but hey it can't hurt. I wanted this friendship to be the one where there was never anything wrong to say but people are wrong, Life is just like Sims The Second Installment. Sure you might be best friends and one second you can tell dirty jokes and the next second its a negative. I guess all friendships are doomed at one point or another. I jut hope its not ours. Long Distance no prob. We just have to work harder. 7 years later I want to add 10 more, is there some kind of Friendship Renewal Thingy I am missing out on? Best Fucking Friends Forever.

Its a dream in a cup!

He shot me and I felt it hard. My life changed when he pointed me in her direction. He told me I would fall for her harder then any one I have fell for before. I think he was right. She was everything I wanted in a girl. Her smiled peirced my heart and made me want her more. Her eyes put the stars to shame, I knew they were meant to be stared at. I thought about her everyday of every minute. I loved her. I still do.

DREAMS ARE ALL THE THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT

I closed my eyes and there we were standing on a bridge in a dark highway still under construction. We were talking about life and other things friends talk about, then she jumped to the dark water below and told me to jump to. I didn't hesitate and jump, I trusted her. Not just any trust. I would have Sky dived from the Empire State Bulding if she said we would survive. I hit the water and it was shallow, she smiled. So we walked through this water still talking about things that didn't matter and she turned around and splashed me but I didn't get wet. I splashed back and she laughed. At that moment My confidence rose from rock bottom and everything I used to feel washed away and I asked her "will you go out with me?" She stared back with this feeling me just wanting to get in her pants and sayed back "go out with you?" I laughed and told her that every second of everyday I think about her and that I never thought of her in a sexual way only her smile and personality started pulling at my heart strings the first moment i laid eyes on her. She smiled I smiled and she said yes. We walked side by side holding hands through this shallow pit under the broken down highway. We took this giant leap to the highway and walked till we ended up at a party where we were sitting on a sofa listening to music and everybody was dancing. She put her head on my shoulder and smile and I smiled.